Monday 16 December 2019

Things I like about myself (V3.0)

1. I am highly creative, whether that comes out through singing, writing, photography, drawing, in conversation, fashion, everyday 'choreography' or through other ways.

2. I am highly intelligent. I also cultivate a mindset that values high intelligence in myself and others.

3. I am a nonconformist in many ways.

4. I have prioritised travel in my life whenever possible.

5. I am good with money. (e.g. I'm good at staying within budgetary restraints.)

6. I have hopes and dreams for the future.

7. I have continued on my unique and self-curated educational journey, which has seen me experience two top universities, and ultimately move beyond them, so that I can learn in ways better suited to my nonconformist outlook. I value learning, education, curiosity and asking questions.

8. I have learned (broken) Spanish through disciplined study of the online DuoLingo course.

9. I have also spent time studying other languages: French, German and Swedish.

10. I am an avid reader. This year I've read 25 books.

11. I have overcome misogynistic violence to empower myself through feminism. My feminism involves in-depth reading, as well as volunteering in the community.

12. I value volunteering and enjoy helping other people.

13. I am politically engaged.

14. I practice self-compassion, mindfulness and I sometimes meditate.

15. I value friendship.

16. I seek inspiration from other writers and creative people. (e.g. I listen to podcasts, attend film festivals, speeches and other events.)

17. I have been blogging for about 13 years. Writing regularly is a good way to hone my talents.

18. I am doing my best to enjoy the aspects of my family life that can be enjoyed, while seeking intellectual and spiritual satisfaction elsewhere.

19. I am openminded.

20. I seek not to hurt other people.

Wednesday 11 December 2019

On with the show

The tremour in me lost its way
It’s been a while since it came this way
I’m attuning myself more to me
Away from a distracting everybody

My head hangs heavy
I disrupt myself at will
Tingling from imagined touches
Basking in goodwill

Not long ago I listened
To a couple of disgruntled authors
Carrying the weight
Of dreams undivulged, of laughter
Unindulged and processes abandoned
It was all too much
I shivered as I summoned expectations
Simulations of ambitions dashed
When I know that, looking back, I’ll gather
That I wouldn’t want to be 
Anybody 
Else