I'm struggling to make meaning out of my life. No, I'm not suicidal. Just very disoriented. I don't have a strong motivation to do anything. I find conviction cultivation ludicrous to maintain.
When you live with soulless and sadistic people, you get used to people taking their issues out on you, and survival takes up all of your mental space.
I'm in despair.
I can't even decide how to spend my money. Do I travel around Australia, thereby saving a lot of money and travelling longer? Or do I continue with one of numerous plans to travel to Europe? Japan? Mexico? Does it really matter if I keep having to come back to the same golden cage?
Grrr.
When you live with soulless and sadistic people, you get used to people taking their issues out on you, and survival takes up all of your mental space.
I'm in despair.
I can't even decide how to spend my money. Do I travel around Australia, thereby saving a lot of money and travelling longer? Or do I continue with one of numerous plans to travel to Europe? Japan? Mexico? Does it really matter if I keep having to come back to the same golden cage?
Grrr.
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